it's been a month of celebration and hopefully some transformation. i just updated a blog that hasn't been touched since may of 2008, which reminded me of other blogs... many things to think about, many questions to ask, many problems to solve. my fortune for the year is a shining sword. i just got off the phone with my father, who tells me that my life will be difficult. also that one needs not just success but the will to do things. do i have the will to change?