it’s been a really long time… i might have to change to a different blog, especially since i haven’t updated this one in such a long time that it really has no following. good reason… but SF says that you don’t have to cut everything out to move forward. of course, I think that that has got some truth to it, but the way I’ve been living is to try to clear some space for new growth. i’m scared to death of being trapped in rooms that lock from the outside. i forgot to tell you this morning but i do like that 3rd spirit, FB – after the Russian Revolutionary Sweep and the American Efficiency: the New York Enterprise & Creativity.
something came over me just now, as i finished writing holiday cards to ppl in japan. my grandmother is in a private hospital, blowing all her decades of savings in the high-income ward where she was placed when she collapsed from diabetes complications. she cycles in an out of good health according to my mother, who flies back and forth between DC and nagoya in the final months of her 30-year employment at the world bank. my mom bikes back and forth from the hospital to the little wooden row-house (長屋) that survived air-raids during WWII, virtually untouched since that time. back and forth in and out up and down how to break free of this incessant cycle of death and rebirth? only through struggle...
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